Hello God, It's Becki

We've moved. There, I finally said it. I've been meaning to post about it for, oh, at least a month and a half, but well, I just haven't been able to formulate all the things I wanted to say, and I was without internet access for a good two weeks (OK, fine, I had my iTouch, but that doesn't count. You can't blog from there), and I was supposed to be applying for jobs, but who am I kidding I was just procrastinating!

Which brings me to the whole point here. We've moved almost the entire way across the country and are starting a completely new life in a completely new place where we know exactly 4 people who happen to be my husband's new boss, his boss's wife and their two sons. Needless to say, even a completely sane person could/would feel overwhelmed by all the change. And let's face it, since graduate school, I'm not the most sane person I know (not the most insane person I know either, so there's a plus)! So like I said, I'm supposed to be applying for jobs, but then I start thinking about all that entails and I just completely start spiraling downward until I can't even bring myself to sit at the computer and look for jobs let alone apply for one.

Yesterday was our first day here alone (me and Caleb). Andrew had gone back to work after nearly 6 months home with us, and here I was alone with Caleb. I had to find a way to fill our day so that I wouldn't go insane home alone with him all day. So by the time nap rolled around, I tried to think about applying for jobs and once again I started spiraling downward...how are we going to handle both of us working 100% full time?, who will cook dinner?, how will we eat before Caleb goes to bed at 7:30 if we only both get home at 6?, who's going to clean the house? I'm going to get so annoyed if I have to do all the cleaning while Andrew watches TV or something, then I'll end up having a giant meltdown...

So to avoid that near meltdown in that exact moment I ended up searching the interwebz and reading blogs instead of looking for jobs. And then it happened...

I came across the blog of a friend of a friend who is starting a Marriage Monday segment, and it was just the thing I needed to read in that moment to help me realize that everything would be ok WHEN I go back to work because Andrew and I are strong and we make an amazing team especially when times are rough.

Then today it happened again. Naptime, just like yesterday, I started looking at blogs, and I came across this entry posted TODAY by a mommy who is going back to work full time now that her little guy is a year old. She's not too much unlike me in a lot of ways (from what I can tell reading a blog on the internet!), and again it was just what I needed to read today to add a little bit of confidence and a reminder that I need to live life for me and for our family and realize that what works for us might not work for others.

So two blogs in two days that make me feel like they were written just for my eyes to see in the exact moment that I needed to see them. All I can say is, "Hello God, It's Becki and I hear you LOUD and CLEAR!"

Caleb has been napping for almost 2 hours, and I applied for 3 jobs (in addition to writing this)!